NOT AGAIN...arrgh!

I’m in my worst mood swing attack these days…not again, arrgh!!! But why? Two weeks na kasi akong puyat at may bad backache! I’ve been really busy, but God You know that I’m not complaining of too much work…it’s just that it’s taking its toll on me! Nakaka-drain- emotionally and physically! When at work, I’m okay…I can manage not to let it affect my work performance. But when I get home, I become cranky!!! I refuse to talk to anyone except to my little boy of course.

I hated my “angels” for not allowing me to have a good rest at home when I most needed it…when only 30 minutes was all I needed and could afford to waste. They did it twice…How inconsiderate?

Over breakfast the other day, hubby started talking about something gross, and I was eating!!! Hello! He knew I’m squeamish. Of course he knew that BUT when I told him “sana hindi natin yan pinaguusapan ngayon kasi kumakain ako” he even had the nerve to react negatively! And said something like “baguhin mo nga ugali mong yan!” I don’t get it! Ako ba mali? Di ba some things are just not appropriate to be talked about during meal time? At the same time wala pa kong tulog! Call it bad timing! I only forced myself to get out of bed just to have breakfast with him and Raph….I never talked to him after that…until now.

Also the other day, I got out of work early which meant I could take a rest and catch some sleep. But a friend of mine was rushed to the hospital via their company ambulance and no one could attend to her. I soo hate the guy for not even being there for her. Of course I came to her rescue. Kahit na di ko kayang mag-drive sa sobrang groggy sa antok! Got home after midnight instead…it’s okay… for a friend, I could lose a hundred sleeping hours. My dilemma is way too simpler compared to hers.

Dami pang nangyari na nakaka-upset…pero tinulog ko na lang kagabi, yes finally nakatulog nako by 1am without thinking of waking up early for work!

So rest day today. Thank God! Saraap ng feeling!!! Pero parang cranky pa rin ako! Running on my mind were the things I wanna do today. I need a massage, I wanna see a movie…or do DVD marathon of my fave tv series. I wanna go to a salon and have my nails done. I want to have a quiet time in the church and pray. I want to just be with a friend, chikahan time at Starbucks or Coffee Bean…But I’m too exhausted to even go to the bathroom. At patapos na ang araw, wala pako nagagawa sa "To do wish-list" ko. My back aches. It seems i can’t do anything. Not even reading Brian Gorrell’s blog can amuse me. A call from Piper was the only thing that kinda perked me up today. Agreed to go jogging with her today. But sorry Piper I realized I can’t do jogging, NOT NOW, when my body isn’t prepared to do anything physical! My back hurts so bad, and my shoulders ang bigat! I might go to therapy later instead.

Post ko na lang kaya our photos during our beach getaway last Holy Week. Just to remind me of our good times…it might just be all I need to get me back on track…and to put the smile back on my face. But wait, parang tinatamad ako mag-upload ng pics...my backache and stiff shoulders are killing me arrgh!