happy birthday my dearest!

just a few hours and five years ago, or february 3, 2003, 2:03 am to be exact, i gave birth to an angel, a 6.7 lbs. baby, whom we named ronan raphael....it was at st. luke's medical center via normal operation and under the care of my favorite OB in the whole world, dra. elsie pascua...(i only have one though hehe, i just love her!)

this after a couple of false alarms- you know having been brought to the delivery room and later sent home because the baby isn't coming out soon yet. gosh i remember every detail of it...the frustration and the embarassment hehe maybe i was overly excited!

i had to walk around with hubby at UP grounds later that day for an exercise, and then had bleeding the next day which made me went back to the hospital... but after some tests, i was sent home, again! that's why late afternoon that day, despite the fact that i was already in so much pain and having consistent contractions, i didn't want to go to the hospital anymore out of trauma maybe or out of fear that i'd be sent home again. it really took a while before i was convinced to go back to st. luke's.

when we got to the hospital, i couldn't even enter the delivery room, i kept walking around, walked up and down the stairs despite the labor pains, just to make sure na this is it...manganganak na ko! it was past 9 pm when i was brought in the delivery room, 5cm na pala, and after an IV injection at around 10 pm, the next thing i knew, i was already at the recovery room....didn't remember any labor pains at all during the giving- birth-process because i was asleep the whole time, but i remember having seen the bright lights above me, those you see in operating rooms. but i was too groggy so i succumbed to sleep again immediately after. that's why i said, "ganon lang pala manganak parang di ako nahirapan!" i was just lucky and blessed i guess, thank GOD!

when i woke up at the recovery room, i immediately touched my tummy and was so relieved that it's not protruding anymore, a clear sign that i had my baby delivered indeed! i wanted to see him but i was first brought to my room where hubby waited all night...he said baby is okay and he's at the nursery room. after some more rest, i was brought to the nursery to have my baby breastfed...i swear i remember every bit of detail despite the fact that i was still groggy then.

the first time i saw my baby, honestly there was no connection yet, when i carried him and kept staring at his face, while the nurse guided me how to breastfeed...it was then that i felt an overflowing joy and immense love for my baby...it's unexplainable! only one word to describe it i guess-- MIRACLE! it was a miracle indeed to have brought out life in this world, someone to love and take care of for the rest of my life. he really changed my life BIGTIME!

and now, he's already 5! unbelievable! how time really flies so fast! yesterday i reviewed him for his final exams which will start on monday...grabe na their lessons at nursery II! if only i could always have time to teach him, but i'm doing my best! kakaloka coz he would always ask for a break, and i was pressured to finish everything in one day so he can have the whole Sunday spent solely for his birthday celebration! for now, i'll just keep my mind worry-free, he's a smart boy, i know he can do well in his exams.

he's just so excited about his birthday that he even waited for 12 o'clock midnight and hear us all in the house greet him a "happy birthday" before he went to sleep. he's not having a grand kiddie party though, he already celebrated in school last friday with his classmates. we'll just have a family celebration with a few of my friends, mostly his ninangs and their kids. he's excited to open the gifts he got from his classmates last friday! uy tumataas na ang kanyang EQ because he was able to wait for his actual birthday before he opens them hehe which is happening later today!

after 5 years, i know still have flaws at parenting...of course i can't be perfect! but i'm trying and everyday...i ask God to bless and guide me so i can be the best mother that i can be for raphael, my superboy, my LIFE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dearest, my most precious in this world! your dadu and mommy here love you immensely!

(will post pics next time)