Monday, July 30, 2007

STOP POLLUTING MY AIR...PUHLEEASE?


I just came from my friend’s place and I smell like shit! It seems cigarette smoke is all over me when in fact, I DON’T SMOKE AT ALL. But being with people who do, like my constant buddies Prue and Piper- both Marlboro fanatics, makes me an “active” second-hand smoker for years now.

But of course I don’t put the blame on them. I’ve had smoker-friends since college. They would gather around me usually at the cafes outside the campus, during sleepovers, or parties, and smoke like there’s no tomorrow. At the workplace, smoking is a regular habit of almost everyone, even at non-smoking areas. Meetings or brainstormings, even tapings have one constant element—yosi! Never mind if it’s prohibited in the studio, they can spot areas where to puff their killer cigarettes. So smoker or not, we breathe the same polluted air, even in unventilated areas, which makes it all the more hazardous. How can you even complain when it’s the bosses or heads that couldn’t do without puffing a stick or a pack for that matter. How I wish I don’t have to put up with that. Why do I have to suffer for every pleasure they get out of smoking?

I have nothing against people who smoke. To each his own. I just have an aversion to yosi itself. I dislike inhaling it and I sooo hate the smell of cigarette butts left in an ashtray. I detest consuming it myself. I know the health risks. BUT I know it’s one thing that I cannot evade. It’s there everywhere I go. In a perfect world, maybe I can choose to breathe just the clean air, or at least impose anyone not to pollute my air…BUT I know, such world doesn’t exist. Not yet.

I’ve been told and have read somewhere that passive smokers are at far greater risk than smokers themselves. Though I’m not sure if this has been proven, I do worry still. I was reading Reader’s Digest the other day and came across an article about a lady from Philadelphia, Heather Rudnick, only 33 and had never smoked but was diagnosed with lung cancer. How could she have lung cancer? Dana Reeve, the then widow of Superman Christopher Reeve, and also a nonsmoker, died of lung cancer. If you were in their shoes, you would certainly ask yourself this question- “why me?”

I’m just glad I’m not one of those people who claim they can’t do so many things without a cigarette. They feel they can’t think or work on something so well without it. Moreso beat their deadlines or relax without a puff. No thanks, but coffee can do that for me. I derive pleasure from drinking a cup, at least no one suffers or I don’t put anyone’s health at risk while doing so. And good thing, I can start or end my day even without one.

Later in the day, I’m gonna meet up again with my buddies to work on a project, and I’m certain they would make sure they have their Marl lights or menthol with them. And they wouldn’t hear me complaining…but if I would play God, I may just tell them outright to please stop polluting my air! Or better yet make them live each day without their brains telling them to puff a cigarette. As they say, it’s already part of their system, and it’s not that easy to just stop. Not even a government warning: SMOKING KILLS helps. I’m pretty sure after hours of conversations and brainstorming, I would again get home smelling like shit and head straight to the shower, wishing the cigarette smoke I have inhaled would also wash out in the drain.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

THE WEEK THAT WAS

July 18-22:: The past week was such a blast for Raphael and I. We had great bonding time together, with his two cousins Hanna & Joyce, minus his yaya. This aside from driving him to and from school everyday.

Wednesday, 7pm:
We watched the opening night of Sesame Street Live at the Aliw Theater. My previous post on it pretty much tells how it made my kiddo’s day!

Friday, 7:40 pm: Harry Potter at Gateway. Initially, I was hesitant to bring him because I wasn’t sure whether he would enjoy the movie as much as he enjoyed Spiderman and Transformers. I asked the mom of his classmate Garth who earlier watched the movie with his dad, she said Garth didn’t quite enjoy the movie and was actually going in and out of the cinema. Luckily for me, Raph only asked me to bring him out once when he wanted to go to the restroom.
The only prob was when he would react to the movie quite loudly everytime he'd get excited. I would remind him to use his indoor voice, the way Barney taught him.
After the movie, TimeZone time! Seeing Raph enjoying playing with his favorite motorbike and car-racing games gives me a high.

Saturday, 3 pm: We watched High School Musical on Stage at the Meralco Theatre. Raphael has memorized most of the songs in the Disney Movie way before it was shown on local cable because when his Dad came from the States last year, he brought him a dvd and cd of the original High School Musical movie. Raph loves to sing that’s why.

6:30 pm: After the musical, we headed to Trinoma. I haven’t been to that mall yet so I thought of going there before calling it a day. The mall is nice; a bit like Glorietta and Greenbelt since it's also an Ayala mall. Raph liked the play area/activity center at the ground floor. And of course, going to the mall wouldn’t be complete without him dropping by Time Zone to play.

Sunday. Homework Day! But up to know, it’s already 3pm and I still haven’t got him into doing his assignments yet. I guess I’ll start bugging him already. Good thing, they have no classes tomorrow, so we still have more time to finish his 6 pages of assignments.

Sesame Street Live


july20/07

Sunny days, sweepin’ the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet
Can you tell me how to get (how to get) to Sesame Street
Come and play, everything's a-ok
Friendly neighbors there, that's where we meet
Can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street


For some funny reasons I couldn’t remember some parts of the lyrics while we sang this song on our way back home after watching Sesame Street Live at the Aliw Theater.
Who could forget this sunshiny-tune and the adorable characters of Sesame Street? They certainly bring back wonderful childhood memories.

Elmo is Raphael’s favorite Sesame Street character. He so loved Elmo before he even turned one year old. Even though his interests have already evolved into Superman, hotwheels cars, Tomas & Friends,Power Rangers, Spiderman, TMNJ and now Transformers, I think Elmo pretty much still occupies a space in his heart. That’s why when I first learned that Sesame Street is coming to Manila, I knew I would never let him miss watching it.

His liking for Elmo began when his Ninong Jillmer brought him his first Elmo toy called Hockey Pockey Elmo as pasalubong from the States when Raph was just a few months old. That’s why on his 1st birthday party, Elmo was his special guest. Of course not the real one but just the local Elmo mascot. I made sure his entrance song would be the “Hockey Pockey” tune because his Elmo toy would dance to it everytime its right hand is pressed. That was the first time I ever saw a one year old enjoying his party from beginning to end. He was dancing with Elmo, mimicking his Hockey Pockey steps that he was so familiar with. Elmo definitely made his birthday a blast!

Raph’s Ninang Tintin Bersola, upon learning that he was so much into Elmo, gave him a collection of Sesame Street/Elmo’s World VCDs, along with Elmo shirts, as 1st birthday gifts. And soon more and more were added to his collection. Not only Raph enjoyed watching or playing with Elmo, he also learned so much from him.

Elmo is the most popular Sesame Street character. Maybe because he’s the only one who has done a full segment called “Elmo’s World.” But did you know that he’s not even part of the original cast. That’s why I remember a friend who was a Sesame Street kid saying that he didn’t know Elmo during his childhood days. Oh well that’s because Elmo came 10 years after the show piloted and he was just a minor character back then.

Raph surely had fun watching the Sesame Street show. Good thing we had a good view of the characters because our seats were quite near the stage. Thanks to his Dad who got us compli tickets whom we also shared with Raph’s friend and my inaanak Jayvee. Up to now, he still has a hangover; he would watch the video I took from my cellphone and not a day passes without him singing “Sunny days sweepin’ the clouds away... Can you tell me how to get, how to get to Sesame Street..”

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Regret NOT?

Regret comes in all sizes.
Small, when you hide a truth
so as not to hurt someone’s ego.
Or when you do bad in order to help.

BIG, when you tell a lie to cover up a big mistake
Or when you let down a friend
Or cheated on a relationship
Or when you tried to make things right
…for the wrong reasons.

Regretting is painful.
It eats up your soul, it consumes your energy.
Knowing you can never take back the time…
Neither the things you’ve said or didn’t say…
Nor the things you’ve done or didn’t do.

Regret NOT the things you’ve said,
BUT the things you’ve held back.
Regret NOT the things you’ve done,
BUT the things you’ve failed to do.

Regretting is not necessarily bad,
When you've acknowledged that you fucked up
Without dwelling on the past
Wanting to do it right or better next time
That alone should set you back on track.
Pick up the lessons learned
Hoping you won’t regret anymore,
By not committing the same mistakes,
Because this time you SHOULD know better.

Monday, July 16, 2007

What Matters Most

Career or Family?
Two different worlds...
Do I really have to choose?
Ignore career, self-fulfillment might be nowhere,
Ignore family and you'll end up unhappy.
How do you reconcile the two?
Equilibrium is important.
They say there has to be a balance
and harmony between the two.
Then compromise is an apt word.
But in the real world,
would your career give way?
Would they understand?
Can your child wait
when you're preoccupied with work?
Can quality time suffice?
Somewhere, somehow, the other will suffer.
'Cause in the eyes of your child
you're the most important thing...
And when he says...
"Mom I love you,
I'm very happy because you're here"
I guess that says it all...
Whose heart wouldn't be moved?
Suddenly, you're overjoyed
Because that's what matters most.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Painful Truth

“Pain…you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, and hope the wound that caused it subside…

A recent family tragedy has caused me so much pain. But I’m afraid the harsh reality hasn’t sunk in my head yet. And so I expect to feel more pain. How can you fathom the loss of your dad, after already having lost your mom? How can you overcome the thought that the first two persons you’ve ever loved and loved you deeply, unconditionally, have already left your world?

With love, there is pain as well…and it lingers. How can someone you immensely love hurt you no end? How can he stand seeing you hurting?

Pain and love. Sometimes, I see them as one and the same. Because my journey with love is never without pain. And truth is, no matter how painful it may be, life will never be without pain.

...Pain…you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t
outrun it, and life always makes more.”
- - Meredith Grey

Paige 1

Very driven, creatively brilliant and has this infectious positive outlook in life…that’s my friend Piper. Ibang level! No wonder she gets luckier everyday…prettier, richer, and happier I guess.

She is a writer by heart and just a while ago she posted her very first “journal” on her new blog account. Why am I talking about her? Because
she also got me into writing this blog. And most probably, what I will write here will not only be about my personal thoughts about anything under the sun, but about our journey to life together, our upcoming business venture with our friend Prue, which I am excited about, our coffee chats and daily game plans. This is Paige and welcome to my charmed world.

Excerpt from my Poetry:
…all the wasted time, I can no longer take back.
But now, can I take my heart back?

my music::